Sunday, January 29, 2012
I _______ , therefore I am.
For me, this blank is easy to fill in. I create, therefore I am. This seems inherently selfish. The relationship is between me and my creation, me and something, not me and someone. No matter what the circumstances are, I create. When comfort is needed, I create. When I need to be seen, I create. When I need to be heard, I create. When I need to be touched, I create. I do reach out to people, but it isn't my first impulse.
Is creating things a substitute for connection with people, a means of connecting with people, or a means of connecting with God?
Definitely not the first. There's no substitute for connecting with people. I wish I could build better connections with new people. Not easy for me. I'm still carving out a new life. A new me.
Definitely the second. I'd like my creativity to be a means of connecting with people. When I write, I connect, much more easily than I do speaking. Not surprising for an introvert. My primary language, however, is visual and my greatest joy is connecting deeply with people through visual creations.
Definnitely the third, connecting with God. I cannot lie when I create. I cannot be unkind when I create. It is me at my best. I create, therefore I am. I have to trust that good will come of this.